Hey! Soooo…I kinda completely disappeared. Sorry about that. I received ALL the messages and questions (in real life, too) and understand everyone’s confusion on my absence. And to be honest, I don’t know the exact reason for being gone so long. I could give you a couple different accurate answers, but when it comes down to it, I think I’ve just been uninspired.
I HAVE been busy. I HAVE prioritized other things. I HAVE lost interest in this blog for a time period. But when it comes down to it, I think I haven’t had much to say. I’m the type of person who doesn’t want to force content when it’s not coming naturally….Thus the over a year long hiatus.
In the year since I’ve written, I’ve turned 17…and as a matter of fact I’m turning 18 in about a month. I’m now a Senior in high school. I’ve gone through phase after phase searching for what I’m doing after graduation. I’ve served in ministry, I traveled across the world and explored Spain (I know, cool right!), and I’ve earned more stripes on my blue belt in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu. I’ve hurt, I’ve cried, I’ve felt so much joy I thought I would explode…I also just gained a sister! Little Athena was born a few days ago which makes my family a family of seven. A lot has happened in the past year.
But, instead of the typical “it’s been so long and I’m finally back” blog post you’re all expecting; I don’t promise a return. I don’t even know if I’ll ever write on this website again. It’s all up in the air. In the past six months or so, I’ve grown a go-with-the-flow attitude. I don’t have a plan for life after high school. I don’t know what my job(s) will be. At all. I graduate in June of 2020. Should that stress me out? Probably. But I’ll tell you this: the most chaotic, daunting, and ever-looming season of life that’s about to forcefully crash into me, doesn’t scare me at all. I, of course, go through the occasional terrified what-in-the-heck-am-I-doing-with-my-life mood….But then it passes and I realize how unproductive it is. I am at the point in my head where I don’t worry about what tomorrow holds. I don’t worry about immediately diving into a 9-5 job or getting a college degree, but rather taking my time and slowly figuring out what God’s plan is.
I don’t look at my early adult years as a sprint, but rather a marathon. I’m not obsessed with figuring out the rest of my life before I “technically” even start it. I am trusting that God will show me each step as I am about to take it. I don’t need to know a 5 year plan. I don’t need to know what I’m doing next year after I graduate.
I write this post not only to inform you of why I’ve been away..But also to hopefully encourage you. I want you to remember that no matter what anybody says, as long as you’re doing what God wants you to do, and you’re trying your hardest to fulfil his plans through you, you don’t have to worry. You don’t have to change.
Don’t worry about fulfilling the standards for whatever season of life you’re expected to be in. Believe in what God is doing in you. Live everyday like it’s a brand new adventure.
600 words later, I think I am satisfied with what I have said. This is my closure. Well, for now at least. I might be back. But I might not. Either way, I’ll be busy on another adventure. ^_^